Tuesday, January 27, 2009


I spoke to Karen Applebaum ('breast' psychologist' - +27 83 9638145) tonight. She chatted to me, trying to gage where I was at and how urgently she would need to see me (she is very booked up).

Speaking to her, I felt the pull of the impending operation. She was surprised to hear that I had chosen to have a double mastectomy when I only needed to have one. I could hear she thought I had not processed my decision properly.

I cried after I put the phone down just thinking that I am going to have both my breasts cut off. I am mourning for body parts and a life that was. I know what I have found is more authentic.

Karen's receptionist will call me tomorrow to make an appointment.