Sunday, February 22, 2009


I received this kind note from the Alex, the man who was brave enough to stand up and run the project of foot patrol officers in our road. This project is largely responsible for stopping crime in our area.

Well done Alex. We so appreciate your hard, courageous work!

Dear Northcliff Neighbour

As I write this e-mail Heidi van Loggerenberg from 18 Lily Avenue is getting prepped for surgery. I only found out yesterday that she was diagnosed with DCIS (ductal carcinoma in situ, stage 0) breast cancer last year. It was her courage and initiative to arrange the first residents meeting back in October 2007 that got us off our backsides in Lily avenue and motivated us to do something about the crime in Northcliff. Please spare her a thought today as she is indirectly responsible for the Foot Patrol Officer in your street and the rest of the initiative that helps to keep your neighbourhood safe.

If you want to follow her progress visit From her blog it is evident that she is tackling cancer with the same courage and guts that we have come to know her for.

Heidi, Glen and the girls you will be in our thoughts and we all wish you a speedy recovery and the 80 years you want to still spend on this planet.

Keep safe

Alex Greyling
Tel (W) 011 888 8778
Cell 082 600 7688

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As I was fallin asleep, I had a thought that made me get out of bed and blog! I was reminding myself again why I am having surgery: I want to be alive for myself and my family. It is the kindest thing I can do for myself and them.

It feels so strange that an act so brutal can be so kind.

It also feels strange to be being so kind to myself. I feel a weird sense of accomplishment that I am actually in a place in a my life where I feel this deserving of kindness to myself and others. I would never had imagined this years back!

I feel like crying all over again but I must get some sleep!!


A HUGE THANK YOU to everyone for all your messages of support, encouragement, and positivity! It means so much to me.

I was feeling quite low after seeing plastic surgeon on Friday and hearing that I will now have 2 op’s and will be in hospital for 5 days and not 3.

I have felt you energy on the energy-waves and am back to my charged positive state. Thank you!

We had our parents over for lunch this afternoon to thank them for everything they have done and everything they will do in the next few weeks to help us.

I explained my surgical process again, what needs to happen with the kids, and that I am not sure what I will need so we agreed to take each day at a time.

I now have a YouTube account so will be vlogging (video blogging) this week. Glenn may also do a few blogs. Not sure whether I will be able to type or not….or even be able to speak on pethidine!

A few thoughts have started creeping into my head from my saboteur archetype saying that it is not possible to get off so lightly, that the doctors may not get all the cancer, and that I may need to have chemotherapy to really understand what others go through so I can be truly compassionate after this.

Every time these thoughts creep in, I thank my saboteur archetype for reminding me to think positive thoughts and to put my energy into feeling self worth and self-love.

Sometimes I think it is easier to think self-destructive/punishing thoughts than to think about being the best you you can be. That is quite daunting! But I just keep focusing on moment-by-moment getting myself to my best me.

I am focusing on me being alive on the other side of this op…. for the next 80 years…with all the knowledge this learning has brought me…in the best health ever!!

I feel very ready for the exam that lies ahead of me tomorrow (I have the student archetype as well!). I want to write this exam and graduate so I can start to use my experience to help others.

I keep putting myself physically in the state I associated with Jimmy (NLP): both hands in the air, fingers in V (victory) sign, and huge satisfied smile on my face, shouting ‘I did it!

My heart is with all those people, where ever they are in the world, who are facing this exam less prepared and are feeling terrified right now. I send you courage, hope, love, and energy.

You can heal. It is possible for you to heal. You deserve to heal.